I miss everything about "The Mousetrap" terribly, but I know the worst now; it’s all over. No matter how many times I say it, it hurts a little. All these weeks of work and finding it in ourselves to become this show and it’s finished. Never again to be the cast as we were. I think it’s safe to say that we’re different people from when we all auditioned.
It’s the most bittersweet crux of acting. You say goodbye to your cast and character after getting to know them so well. At first you can’t understand it. It’s not that you can’t be or see them again; merely the window of time given to be and live with these people expired. Your character, no matter which he or she was, takes some piece of who you are and doesn’t give it back; but gives you a better piece of yourself you didn’t know you could be or have. The cast is the same way. Everyone takes something away from the show; if we didn’t we didn’t really learn anything now did we?
My cast, crew, and character gave me wings, bravery, and maturity I didn’t think I could have. It was when my cast and crew did everything and nothing that shaped me to be the character I played and person I am now. Everything lined up, we collaborated, tweaked, and painted a story like no other ever has or ever will again. When Mollie started out - okay when I started out, - I was flighty and wouldn’t stay off my tip-toes. It was very young. But through a lot of shaping, molding, and perhaps some pounding Mollie became the young woman she was supposed to be. So after taking my dear Sergeant’s advice I took my own statement, it’s therapeutic in a way, the final stitch over the crack on my heart. But I wouldn’t have this end any other way.
What’s so madly interesting about people is they have a tendency to relive the tiniest detail of regret over and over again. Things change us but not necessarily the way we plan. One can’t always help looking back, yet, when I do, I regret nothing. ~ Azure Hall
|The cast of "The Mousetrap" at their closing night cast party.|